Mary Lou - Please know you are loved by your family and friends and that we are here for you - and even when we let you down (and we will, cause we're human), God will always be there to encourage and strengthen you, if you let Him.
"For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart." (Jeremiah 29:11-13)