MOMMY/GRANDMA,
GOOD MORNING TO YOU! THIS IS THE VERY FIRST TIME I OPENED YOUR SITE.. I LOGGED INTO FACE BOOK AND BIG LAZ'S PICTURE WAS ON THERE WITH YOUR OBITUARY AND MEMORIES AND I FINALLY HAD THE COURAGE TO OPEN IT. I KNOW YOUR LOOKING DOWN ON ME LAUGHING CUZ IM CRYING AND U SAID U WOULD LIKE TO SEE US CRY JOKINGLY AND U KNOW UR NOT SUFFERING ANYMORE AND NOW TAKING CARE OF ME AND MY FAMILY MAKING SURE I NO LONGER SUFFER! THANKYOU SO MUCH MOMMY- I KNOW U ARE PROUD OF ME AND I KNOW U ARE BY ME EVERY STEP I TAKE CUZ' I SEE THE SPARKLES OF YOU (MY GUARDIAN ANGEL) AND FEEL YOUR PRESENCE WHEN I HAVE NO CLUE TO WHATS GOING ON AND I JUST CALM DOWN KNOWING U WILL HELP AND LEAD ME IN THE RIGHT DIRECTION, I GUESS U TOOK ONE FOR THE TEAM AND LET GOD COME GET U TO HELP ALL OF US AND MAKE SURE WE ARE IN GOOD HANDS...
AS U CAN SEE, ME AND BIG DAVID ARE NO LONGER TOGETHER AND HE IS SOMEWHAT OUT OF CONTROL. WE ALL ARE AT TIMES AND ONE THING I CAN SAY IS THANKS FOR HELPING ME INSTEAD OF JUDGING ME!! U ALWAYS WANTED WHAT WAS BEST FOR ME AND NOW LOOK.... DID U SEND BILLY BACK INTO MY LIFE TO FIND HOW MUCH IN LOVE U AND DADDY ARE? HE REALLY MAKES ME HAPPY AND ITS BEEN 13 YEARS WE WAITED FOR ONE ANOTHER CUZ I DEDICATED MY LOVE TO BIG DAVID KNOWING I WANTED A HUSBAND LIKE DADDY AND FAMILIES SHOULD ALWAYS STICK TOGETHER THRU THICK AND THIN, U SAID I WOULD NEVER LEAVE HIM AND U WERE RIGHT- HOWEVER HE LEFT US! I DO NOT HATE HIM AND I KNOW U WILL LOOK OVER THE BOTH OF US AND I HOPE U CONTINUE DOING THIS THAT I AM IN DESPERATE NEED OF ANSWERS...
I PREY TO U AND GOD JESUS MARY AND JOSEPH ALL THE TIME CUZ' THATS HOW U TAUGHT ME TO PREY, LOL AND IM ALWAYS DOING A CROSS AROUND MY BODY WHEN I RIDE BY A CHURCH AND ALL THESE SUPERSTITION THINGS U HAVE TOLD ME, I FIND MYSELF STEPPING ON A COMB BEFORE I PICK IT UP SO I WILL HAVE GOOD LUCK, OR NEVER LEAVE UR PURSE ON THE FLOOR OR U MITE END UP BROKE, OR WHEN THE BROOM DROPS U SAID COMPANY WAS COMING.. IM SURE NARDA AND MINA DO THE SAME THINGS AND THINK OF YOU ALL THE TIME, U WERE AND ARE THE MOST SPECIAL MOTHER ANYONE COULD EVER DREAM OF. IT'S FUNNY CUZ YOU ALWAYS SAID I WAS JUST LIKE U BUT WHEN WE MEET FRIENDS OF THE FAMILY SOMEONE WILL ALWAYS TELL NARDA, MINA, AND I DIFFERENTLY. WE ALL HAVE SOMETHING ALIKE IN US THAT BRINGS U OUT OF US. IT'S A BEAUTIFUL THING. I KNOW I GOT UR FEET AND CHUNKYNESS... LOL IM GOING TO LOSE IT HOPEFULLY IF THATS WHAT GOD WANTS OF COURSE, AND MINA AND NARDA DEFINATELY GOT YOUR GOOD LOOKS, I GOT DADDYS GOOD LOOKS. YOU KNOW... IT'S BEEN A YEAR AND BABY DAVID BRINGS YOUR NAME UP ALL THE TIME SAYING HOW HE WISHES U WERE HERE CUZ U ALWAYS GAVE HIM HUGS AND KISSES! HE WILL NOT ALLOW ANYONE TO TOUCH HIM AND SELDOMLY HE WILL GIVE HUGS.. HE LOVED U SOOOOOOOOOO..... MUCH! EVERY GRANDCHILD DID! THERE WAS SO MUCH LOVE IN U TO OFFER AND EVERYONE GOT IT FROM U! LOVE IS PRICELESS AND U SURE NEW HOW TO EMBRACE IT. BABY DAVID SPITS ALOT AND HE THOUGHT WHEN WE VISITED YOUR GRAVE THAT BY SPITTING ON IT "HE THOUGHT HE WAS KISSING YOU"!! SO HE SPITS ALL THE TIME YELLING "I JUST KISSED GRANDMA" THEN HE WILL SAY, "MOM.. SPIT! RIGHT NOW AND KISS GRANDMA!" SO I WILL OCCASIONALLY SO IF ANYONE SEE'S MY YOUNG ONE SPITTING ITS BECAUSE HE THINKS HE'S KISSING HER. HE DREAMS OF U AND HE BRINGS ME PICTURES OF YOU EVERYTIME I FEEL SAD OR LONELY! HE SO SWEET AND GENEROUS AND WILL ASK ME (ARE U THINKING OF GRANDMA?) I CAN SAY NO AND HE WILL SAY "YES U ARE!" HE'S AMAZING, AND HE WILL NEVER EVER FORGET U IN THE TIME U SPENT WITH HIM THE SIX YEARS U TWO SPENT TOGETHER! YOUR LOVE WAS VERY UNIQUE, AND I BELIEVE IT'S BECAUSE IT WAS STRAIGHT FROM THE HEART AND VERY GENUINE, (I LOVE EVERYONE 2)! BILLY AND I ARE THINKING ABOUT GETTING MARRIED AND HAVING MORE KIDS- WHAT DO U THINK?? LOL I VISIT DADDY EVERYDAY OR OTHERDAY HOWEVER HE IS ALWAYS WORKING! U KNOW WHAT I MEAN WHEN I SAY WORK...B I N G O!!!! NOW I HAVE COURT NEXT TUESDAY AND AGAIN I KNOW U WILL BE BY MY SIDE, PLEASE HELP ME DURING THIS DAY TO MAKE AND SAY THE RIGHT THINGS AND DESCISSIONS, I BELIEVE U BLESSED ME WITH THE BEST FAMILY NOW BECUZ I CAN NOW SMILE AND L